18th JANUARY???!!!!!!goshh.

18th jan?? ohh gosshh...today is 18th of jan!!! zzz..today i'm the pianist at church..and i knew i played BADLY!! very bad...sorry...sorry..VERY SORRY..i cant concentrate today. it was the firz time i be the pianist at er tuan..although i knew i can play well, but i just cant concentrate...i played one song very very badly...it was bad...sorry..i knew i'm lousy enough. ahh...hope that i can improve..realy hope so. i'm not in a mood now..why am i that lousy??...i just cant understand. maybe i'm reli dat stupid..dont have the bakat i think...my best friend also said that my speed is just too fast..and i think she will think that i din have the bakat to be a pianist right?? i knew it...lol...sorry..i hope to improve...=(..---bye---going to church now...love-jacinth...not a happy jacinth now.==